Sunday, November 23, 2008

Reality Check

Still looking for that camera I promise. Riley doesn't have school this week and I am taking this whole week before Thanksgiving to go room by room and completely clean and get rid of the clutter.

So Riley had a birthday party that she was invited to today. It was at The Bouncy Place. Basically it is a big warehouse full of party rooms and air filled bouncy toys. Parents were encouraged to play too so Paul and I were bouncing around with Riley and the other kids and parents. Great fun.

Getting to my reality check. I am not so overweight that it hinders me from activities. I think that because I was once athletic and in shape and thin that my heart and lungs are for the most party healthy because of this. I have not been overweight my whole life. I am not near diabetic. Other than having extra weight every time I take a physical I am in excellent health.

I think because I have not been overweight my whole life I don't feel like this "fat" person that I am on the outside. I feel "thin". Until I get a glimpse of myself in the mirror or go shopping for new clothes.

However, "that moment" happened today. I was expecting it to happen and it did. One of Riley's classmates said "You have a big tummy" and I said "yes I do" and then she said "is there a baby in there". It was completely innocent and something that a 5 year old would be curious about. There were a few other mothers there that were pregnant. I just politely said "no I don't" with a smile and she said "oh" and ran off to play.

I knew some day it would come but I didn't realize what an emotional impact it would have. I had to leave the party room and go cry in a bathroom stall for a bit. When I came back to the party my husband didn't really understand why I was upset because the questions were so innocent. Later after talking to him he said that he loves me no matter what so what does it matter. How easy it must be to be a man!

Tomorrow to the gym again in this long journey. I have said it before. As long as I don't gain weight then I am happy. I don't want to put serious pressure on myself to loose and immense amount by a certain time. I understand this will take time. I just need to make this experience a motivator I guess. Ok signing off for now. I have a TON of knitting to do before my next bazaar and Christmas!

Friday, November 21, 2008

Go Cougs!

For all of you Washingtonians you probably know that this weekend is Apple Cup. Obviously we are Wazzu fans over here. The following are a few thoughts for the weekend.

How do you get a UW alumni off of your porch? ...... Pay them for the pizza!

What is the difference between a Husky dog and a Husky fan? ...... You swerve to miss the husky dog

What is the difference between a UW Husky and a cockroach? "Cockroaches make that cool popping sound when you stomp on them".

What do they call a good looking girl on the UW campus?..... A Visitor

What is the best selling toilet paper at UW? .... The brand that has the instructions printed on every sheet

How do you keep a husky football player out of your yard? ..... Put up goal posts

What is the difference between the huskies and cheerios? ..... Cheerios belong in a bowl

Why do you see so many cars with UW plates on the side of the road just outside Pullman? Because the Huskies always stall in the red zone.

Seriously though we have two of the worst teams in history playing in the apple cup. The huskies and cougs are the two worst teams in the Pac-10. But hey the cougs have at least won a game and this is bragging rights for who sucks worst. GO COUGS!

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

One Pound gone

I lost just over a pound this past week. I didn't hit the gym too hard this week but I will take a pound. Weight just under 265 EDIT: I realize that the initial weight post said 264 which isn't right it was 266 so I really didn't gain a pound!

Monday, November 10, 2008

Accountability To Be Tested

Weird! So my last post.... where I am posting weight loss here to hold myself more accountable. Very weird...same day MY BROTHER PROPOSES TO HIS GIRLFRIEND!

So in addition to being open about my weight and loss of it I have a HUGE motivator (in addition to being healthier for my family).

Oh Paul found the camera I can't find the camera!

Thursday, November 06, 2008

Coming Clean

I have been on a weight loss journey for a very long time. Last fall I lost 10 pounds before the holidays and kept it off and I was so proud of myself. Since then I have lost a pound here and there. It had been way too long since I had been to our amazing gym which we pay a pretty penny (in our area) for so I went last night. I have been feeling overly fat lately. So last night I decided to weigh myself after my workout because if I did it before and I didn't like what the scale said I would just be depressed and it would affect my workout.

The workout was ok for just getting back after a while. I mostly worked on my lower body. Then I did 20 good minutes of cardio on the bike. Let me tell you bringing some sort of knitting for this helps because it kept me on the bike the whole 20 minutes. So after my workout my husband and I always meet in the sauna. On my way I weighed myself and I found that I had lost some weight.

I feel like I need to be accountable for my weight, not only to my husband who loves me no matter how big or thin I am. I don't have any girlfriends here where I live to work out with. I have friends...just none to hook up with to exercise and none of them belong to my gym.

So inspired by another blogger I read. I am going to be accountable here.

Readers last night my weight was 264 pounds. Yes that is a lot. Too much. I have not been heavy my whole life. I used to be very thin and very active and very athletic. I used to be a size 9. Now that I am older my body is telling me I need to loose this weight. My knees ache, my hips ache and my back and neck ache from my weight. When I am disciplined and I do work out regularly I drop weight very fast and my muscle tissue bounces back. It is just the getting there that is hard.

Paul says "Honey you had 2 kids. Don't worry about it." I love that man. He really does not care at all. I am so lucky. My youngest is 3! I should have lost this weight and then some by now. I wasn't a size 9 when I had my children I was heavier. I was going to college in an intensive program with only time for school, eating, studying, and school projects. Actually Paul has never seen me at a size 9 which is nice. I was a plus size when we met and got married. Just not this much of a plus size.

So there I weigh 264 pounds. I want to weigh 180 pounds. I think that is a reasonable weight for someone who has had two children and lives my lifestyle. If I ever lost more than that then I will be elated.

This is what I am going to do. Once a week I am going to post my weight. I am going to be accountable to more people. My first goal is to just loose 10 percent of my body weight and so on and so on. So my first goal from today is to loose basically 26 and a half pounds. I don't care how long it takes to do that I am not going to pressure myself with that. However, I am not going to be gaining weight any more. That time in my live is over.

Wednesday, November 05, 2008

YES! Time for a change!

I try to not get very political on my blog but I am too excited about THIS to keep quiet. I cannot wait until January.